Thursday, 17 January 2008


Well, I had to go back to Cambridge because I got pooled. So I had interviews at Fitzwilliam, and New Hall, and I got an AAA offer from Fitz! So now it is all go on the studying front.

I have decided to try to stay on top of my work, and do at least ONE piece extra a week. This is proving to be a lot of hard work, and at the moment, I am not getting on with my teachers very well. I don't know why, but none of them seem to like me. This has become the bane of my life, and I have found myself scared to talk in lessons because I am scared to be condemned.

Things I am angry about:
  • "Booty Luv" - I don't know what this is? what does it MEAN!? the whole concept worries and upsets me. I think it is a band name?
  • Talent not being recognised. And equally, people who don't have talent, getting the big breaks in life.
  • Not having money.
  • The idea of a celebrity "endorsing" something, and the way everyone goes MAD for that something. For example, Kate Moss has a perfume range out, and people are buying it because it is Kate Moss. Having said that, I bet I will like it, when I smell it.
  • Internet Illiteracy. Someone said to me today that "Adults are the immigrants, and Children are the natives [in today's society]" and perhaps that is the case. But ignorance makes me cross.
  • People who say "Elgar is all about patriotism." If you have heard his THIRD SYMPHONY (although he only wrote the sketches for this, and it was completed by some other guy) then you would think otherwise. It is PURE sex, in musical form. There is this AMAZING violin motif at the beginning of one of the movements... och!
I don't really know why I still keep this blog. I know nobody reads it. I don't know why I would WANT anyone to either though. Just a thought.

I have begun a dream diary. I usually have these really epic dreams. They often involve places from my youth, and inventions. I love them, they are really interesting, and I especially like it when things make total sense in the dream, but when you wake up, and re-think, it is totally random! Anyway, since I have been keeping this diary, I have only been able to remember fragments of my dreams. It's better than nothing though, and at least they are fragments I can always remember now.

I never ended up seeing 'Les Chansons D'Amour', but I still really want to. My legendary friend Vita says it is "really weird, with loads of lesbians..." HA!

It has just occurred to me that I am really not pretty enough to model. I have never wanted to, but I really wish that I was one of those people who was off-beat in a sexy way. Or a style icon, or really beautiful. I know a few people like that, particularly Hannah, and Becca. And I need to sort out my arm flab...

Gosh this has been such a negative post. I promise a more positive one soon!

Wednesday, 2 January 2008


Salut toutlemonde!

Well, I am desperately trying to complete two french essays before i go out tonight to see a french film: Les Chansons D'Amour . I am really excited about seeing this film, as it has one of my favourite actresses in it (Ludivine Sagnier), and it is a musical!!! So all in all, i am having a bit of a french themed day. I just wish i hadn't left ALL of my homework until after New Year... and internet procrastination is my downfall.

On the subject of new year, I had a good one in the end, although theings were looking rough at one point. I was meant to be spending it in the village/town where my dad lives, with him, and my baby brother and sister. But I was getting more and more stressed out with the children, and with my life-plans (to convert to Judaism, marry a Hindu, and bring up several delightfully mixed race children) being shot to pieces by well meaning family friends, that I eventually upped and left, getting the first train I could to an even more remote village, where I was invited to a party at my friend Tasha's house. It was a really funny night, with some top quotes to enter into my Quote Book.
We weren't wearing hats for the entire evening, but they did come into the party equation for some reason. nobody really remembers why!

Christmas was good. I split my time between mother's and father's. (Oh the joys of divorce!) and of course received some pretty good presents. Lots of makeup, and some clothes, which is really what I wanted, so was pleased on that front. However, I did have to eat TWO christmas dinners, due to both parents insisting on being the one who cooked me my christmas meal... Neither of them know that the other one did, and I suppose I intend to keep it that way!

I have been discovering other people's blogs too, which has made me feel a bit like my blog isn't all that good! It doesn't really have a point to it, and I don't think anyone reads it!

So, back to my french essay on «Les éffets des progrès en génétique». I shall post a blog about Les Chansons D'Amour at some point. I really hope it is good!